Surviving Stupid

Trauma. If I have learned anything about my scrambled egg brain is that a lot of my mental wrestling matches involve some form of trauma. A close family member recently told me that I was a professional victim that was bringing my entire family down with me. They informed me that I will continue to […]

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Breaking Bottles (90 days dry)

My first sip of alcohol was in Junior High at my friend Joe’s house. Hell, my first open-mouth kiss happened there too. NOT with Joe!!! 😉 Two words … helicopter tongue. We drank Kahlua from the bottle, refilled it with some water, and then pretended to be adults. I was 13. My first beer was […]

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shART

I’ve shARTed all over the place to deal with the crowd. I’d like to talk about them and be super hipster about it. Oh … and relevant. And..and insightful….. Honestly though, it’s just shitty shART.

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Shit Sponge #3

“Just smile. It is scientifically proven that smiling makes you happier. Maybe that will help your sales!” – Employer If smiling helped I wouldn’t be where I am right now, fuckface. If all of this shit was about feeling ‘happy’ I could easily find a way to cope.   I am told too often how […]

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Insignificant

Social media is fucked. The days of speaking with someone face-to-face are done; only knee-jerk reactions and re-posts with ill-informed commentary. I too have fallen for the narcissistic lies that we tell ourselves. We want to be heard, counted and included. And on the other hand, we find a way to require like-minded ‘followers’ and […]

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Shit Sponge #2

“Josh! Turn off that ‘spear chucking’ music!“ – Father I heard this EVERY TIME I put a rap song on when I was younger. Evangelical leadership at its finest. Father of the year? Nope.  Just fucking racist.  

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60 Days Dry

I never thought I could go a single day without a beer. ………… Who fucking cares? Why is not ingesting a beverage such a big deal? Sure, it makes sense to take care of myself but why tell people? Why make a big deal? Why care? Sobering up has clarified a lot around me. Without […]

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Shit Sponge #1

“Josh, your marriage to your wife is ‘null and void’ since you denounced god because it was a bond/commitment between all three.” -Brother Thanks bro. We will miss him during sex too. He loved it in the ass.

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I Wear Black When You Are Blue

He can’t breathe What if that was me Would you stop to see If I was comfortably Inconvenienced …… I see color in the streets Fire in those I meet Bloodied and freshly beat All you have is a tweet And impotence …… I wear black when you are blue I stand for those who […]

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Wednesdaze

We are all truly alone. Our thoughts, feelings, and beliefs are only our own. Muddied between the darkness and the clarity of what brings us sadness and what we find sacred. I find no hope in other people’s reality for me. No peace. Only Solitude. Unwanted Darkness. Again. And again. I wish I cared less.

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